So since i've been pregnant which really hasn't been that long but seems like my entire life due to the fact that i can't remember what it feels like to actually not be nauseated and throwing up anymore.... I feel like i am so lucky to be able to spend my time with my best friend and lover who takes such good care of me its AMAZING! He's always asking me what he can do for me or what he can get for me, and as silly as it sounds i am so grateful for the small kindnesses he shows me! He always makes me feel special and loved, he's just awesome! I'm sure everyone feels that way about their husband but he is such a trooper, he listens to me whine and cry when i'm so exhausted from just massaging 5 or 6 people and puking inbetween! I honestly feel like i knew being pregnant would be hard but i don't think anything really prepares you for just how crappy you really are going to feel! However on the same note I feel so blessed that after trying for just over a year we are FINALLY being granted the opportunity to bring such a tiny person into this world who we will be totally responsible for taking care of! Ah we are so EXCITED already its funny! In a week from monday we finally get to hear the heart beat for the first time, i'm sure some of you are laughing at how pathetically excited i am just to hear the heart beat which means i'm only 3 months pregnant with a very long time to go but i feel like that will make this all REAL for me! The whole experience is so surreal your first time cause honestly i have to remind myself that i am actually really PREGNANT and not just some freak who has the flu 24/7 haha! So i will keep you all posted and let you know how our first visit at the doctors office goes!
